NICOLE LEARNS TO BLOG

The name is Nicole. 21.
A Registered Nurse.
Fashion Enthusiast.
Food Fan.

Confessions of a Young Lady Who Lost a Mother

January 27, 2014 it was a usual Monday for me. That morning mom and I made plans to take Daenerys to their house until the afternoon. I was suppose to pick Daenerys around 5pm but my body couldn’t get up so I asked Jane (the babysitter) to pick Daenerys instead in my mom’s house. Little did I know that it was mom’s last day here on earth.

Tuesday, January 28,2014- I left work at 5:30 in the morning and to my surprise I got almost 30++ texts and 20++ missed calls from my cousin and aunt. I knew something was up and my hands were shaking as I browsed their messages. Their texts progressed from “Where are you? We took your mom to the E.R ” to ” Your mom passed away.” . After I read their messages, that’s when my world finally stopped. I didn’t even realized how I got to the hospital in 5 minutes.

I was hoping to see mom inside the emergency room but alas, I was routed to the morgue. That was the time my tears started to fall and cried even harder to see her lifeless. I never knew that last week which was Wednesday was the last day we had quality time together and probably the last day I would see her beautiful smiling face. I even brought her breakfasts that time and had a couple of talks and now she’s literally gone.

And until now, my heart still breaks and long for you mom. Sure we had bad times together but damn, I miss you every single day since you left us. I know this time will come but I never realized that it’s too soon. I want to spend more time with you but I can’t do that anymore. I even have plans to take you, Yanyan, Daenerys and Nanay out for a lunch but it’s too late. Everytime I’m outside and go to the places we’ve been to, I still search for your face that maybe I can see you there waiting for us. Just maybe. It really hurts mommy. I wish you could take all my pain away and wake me up to tell me everything right now is just a bad dream. Sure people might think I’m starting to recover since I cry less and less in public but I truth is, I’m just too tired to show off people how I really feel. Seems like you took a huge part of my heart with you. But in the end at least you’re not in pain anymore mommy and that is what’s more important. Deep inside I hate to see you go through your treatments and sufferings and I wish I am super rich so that I’ll be the one to pay for your transplant and maintenance medicines and we’ll go back to our normal lives.

Back in 2011, I asked God why out of all the young girls out there, you picked me to be a mother at an early age ( I was 20 that time and gave birth at 21 in 2012. ) Now I finally know your answer. It is true that you never question God’s timing. You gave me Daenerys so that we won’t be too sad when the time comes that you’ll be taking mom with you. And throughout this pregnancy and motherhood, you made me appreciate Mommy Nanette even more like what she went through when I was still a baby- all the sacrifices and everything. Thank you God for letting this happen to me.

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Like what I have said on my previous instagram post, I wish I could by a time machine and repeat all our happy memories. Maybe I’ll just dream of you tonight and the following nights. I love you so much Mommy Nanette and till we meet again.

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Anonymous asked: hi are you open for online shop collaborations? :)

Yup! :)

BACK LOGS 09022013: MIND MUSEUM PHOTO DIARY

Since August 30 was a school day, we opted to treat my little sister on a weekend to celebrate her 5th birthday. We went to the Mind Museum in the Fort and stayed there the whole afternoon. Here are our photos that day.

Someone’s very excited for her first museum trip! 

Forgot to mention that September 2 was our dear Granma’s birthday too!

So here’s the Space Section.

And of course, your Mind museum experience won’t be complete without taking a photo with this Dino!

My favorite part of the MM experience.

Ala Breaking bad-ish!

LOL at this static ball. Even your tiny hair in your arms would definitely raise.

The verdict: I do not mind paying up around 700-800Php for this whole museum trip. Boy! it was fun even for adults like us. At first we were like, “We have to pay for this price just for 3 hours?!” but then after the whole museum trip we realized that it was really worth it and 3 hours was not enough. Cool thing was you can operate most of the displays there so it was more than just visual learning. Loved the part where we have to go inside a dark circle mini theater where we could watch a 30 minute clip on how the world started- scientifically speaking. I would have to say the playground outside were not just your ordinary playground. Drop by to the Mind Museum to see what I mean ;)

Hiatus mode off!

Wow. It’s been almost 4 months since my last post here. Our phone/camera got stolen last 4th day of July that is why all of the entries that I’m about to post were long gone :( Anyways I guess I’m back to blogging and I got lots of stories to tell you which will be uploaded in a few days time haha :) You may want to check out my little Daenerys blog at http://daenerysdiaries.tumblr.com but it is still not updated yet just like mine. And by the way I might change my blog username and create a decent blog soon.

08182013 Retrobution

It was my department’s 4th year anniv and they threw off this party where the theme is about the 60s down to 80s.

I opted to have this Hippie from the sixties peg slash coachella and my hair and make up was done by the ever amazing Camille Paulino. You may check her works here though her site is under construction still according to her and if all else fails, you may contact her via facebook . 

So here’s what happened to the party..

Talk about cross dressing! haha Still cannot believe my friend Jayson were able to pull up that retro chick look.

Great night.. and great food too. haha! 

Back logs: June-July 2013

Hellow! It’s been a while I know! :( Work has been consuming me lately, the last post I had was I think last May. Here’s what I have up to- the few months that I have been inactive.

Last June 4, 2013 , my baby girl turned 1 already and hurray for that! :) She blew out her cake exactly when  she was born last year. 12:44 pm to be exact. Boy, I cant believe that it’s been a year and she grows up way  too fast. After that, she had her first haircut at the Cuts for Tots Glorietta.

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…And last June 9,2013 we officially celebrated her birthday with loved ones and friends at Shakey;s,  El Pueblo. 

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Family also had a chance to visit Adrian’s hometown in Northern Samar. Another milestone for our little girl Daenerys coz she had her first airplane ride going there. Totally lovin the provincial life LOL Manila is just too stressful for me and it was a good thing I had a week off from the busy city.

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I’ll definitely go back to this wonderful place over and over again. Samar vacay definitely wrapped up my whole June-July hiatus experience.

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To my best college friend, partners in crime, food trip buddy and my sister from another mother, happy happy birthday. Thanks for sticking with me through thick and thin. You’re my first friend whom i told the first time when i found about daenerys and i thank you for always believing and bringing the best out me. When i was in doubt to take the june-july 2012 nle, you are there to convince that i can surely pass it with one take and boy, you are right. Thank you for the genuine friendship and i am blessed to have you as one of my treasured friends. You have a good heart no wonder God showers you with blessings. Love you cess!  enjoy your day.

To my best college friend, partners in crime, food trip buddy and my sister from another mother, happy happy birthday. Thanks for sticking with me through thick and thin. You’re my first friend whom i told the first time when i found about daenerys and i thank you for always believing and bringing the best out me. When i was in doubt to take the june-july 2012 nle, you are there to convince that i can surely pass it with one take and boy, you are right. Thank you for the genuine friendship and i am blessed to have you as one of my treasured friends. You have a good heart no wonder God showers you with blessings. Love you cess! enjoy your day.

Photo by @ielleielle

Photo by @ielleielle

Made by your highness @ielleielle so excited for the other photos.

Made by your highness @ielleielle so excited for the other photos.

04272013 OOTD

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O hai I love Spongebob.

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Muscle Shirts are a big thing this summer. I got my Jack Daniels Muscle tee only at THE ANNEMAZING SHOP BY G . They also have Instagram under the same name so check them out. 

04212013 Sunrise Buckets

I loved how they have this laid back beach surfer vibe inside and their music matches too with the place. We ate the Sunrise Original and you can never go wrong with this flavor specially if you are a first timer. O yeah almost forgot, try pairing up your Buffaloes with some ice cold beer. See the bone collector bin right there? That is were you put your finished buffaloes. Very creative right?